Fruit, Fruitiness, and Rotting Teeth

Is it weird that I feel cute/sexy when I eat apples?

I ate one, and now my rotting tooth hurts worse. Luckily/Unfortunately, I have a dentist appointment in the morning. I'm hoping they'll yank out a couple and replace them with some false teeth.

I just saw my only ILM dreamboat. It's funny. I don't want to date him, or sleep with him, for that matter. I just want to receive his hugs, which are great, and admire his good looks and listen to him play guitar and talk to him about things.

My two big bosses just left for a roadtrip to visit some clients.

My productivity is completely shot.

Things about stuff that is good for me emotionally

I got to see my brother.

He and his band, JVA, and Hercules, an Omaha band on tour with them, played at the Soapbox and stayed at mi casa for a few days. I can confidently say that my house can comfortably hold a lot of sleepy/drunk people.

I'm really too exhausted to even think right now -- more later, I suppose.

I just wanted to say that I am going to sleep a) sober b) happy.

Also, I think it's hilarious that after all this time, I still have a crush on Mellow. I guess it's hilarious because we see each other once a year and don't really make contact otherwise.

Oh well. It's no secret that I am a silly, silly woman.

Alright. Sleep awaits.

In case you were wondering...

It has been nearly a year since I left you, yet it still stings when I hear what you told people I was to you.

dream a little dream of..

I wonder if I will ever surrender the fantasy of a quirky little man stalking me (in a pleasing, not frightening manner) and leaving gifts like mixtapes and gadgets and books on my doorstep and/or in my mailbox.

Dehydration Dreams

I had disturbing dreams last night involving sex with friends and helping my brother run from a random man.

I need to drink more water.

I am like you, only different.

I understand the origin of Valentine's Day. I agree that it is a holiday in which the meaning has been slightly skewed, too. It was based on two dudes dying, turned into a day to celebrate love, and is now centered around money and how big of a diamond a man can get a woman.

With that said, I hope that someday, despite our knowledge of the weirdness and silliness surrounding the holiday, someone will hand me a brightly colored piece of cardboard, tell me they love me, and mean it.

I did not want to be right about that.

Just FYI.

Hearing the crying made me equally sad and angry.

why i love Neruda.

quiero hacer contigo lo que la primavera haces con los cerezos.


FOR REALZ.

not an ulcer -- just a hole in reality

Stomach aches come from knowing, or thinking, that I am always a victim of timing and/or distance.

I know good when I see it.

I find this frustrating.

25 things

everyone on facebook is posting those slightly annoying, slightly interesting '25 random things about yourself' notes.

here's mine.

1. I have baby fever, yet I still question whether or not I want to raise children.
2. I become really, really uncomfortable if I accidentally hear people I know having sex.
3. I only get a really good night's sleep in complete silence and complete darkness.
4. I wish I had been more disciplined when trying to learn guitar years ago.
5. The smell of chilies roasting over fire is my favorite smell. Ever.
6. I wish I believed in God. It seems to comfort a lot of people.
7. I have a scar above one of my eyes that only my parents can see -- and it's usually when I'm coming down with an illness that they notice it. I got this scar when I fell down cement stairs at my Aunt's wedding when I was four.
8. My earliest memories include my great Aunt's funeral, my mother's cat being hit by a car, and my neighbor paddling me for throwing sand at her daughter. Oddly enough, I was a very happy child!
9. I become jealous of really weird things -- like couples that seem really happy and functional.
10. I really enjoy reading, but I'm more inclined to watch movies because I find it easier to insert my own life into the plot.
11. I love dancing. It always makes me happy. Someday I'd like to learn actual dance steps.
12. I secretly judge people who use poor grammar when they speak.
13. I am really really bad at math.
14. I regret not trying harder in college the first time around.
15. I am addicted to coffee, and will warm up the same cup full up to seven times.
16. I am horribly afraid of vomit, yet have no issues cleaning up urine, feces, or blood -- with gloves, of course.
17. I have difficulties focusing on the problem at hand if the person explaining it is long-winded.
18. I like my hands and feet for some reason.
19. I wrecked my friend's motorcycle once, and have no desire to ever ride one again.
20. I have spent time in jail.
21. An exboyfriend once threatened to tell my father that my mother was having an affair so that I wouldn't break up with him. (My mom wasn't really unfaithful, FYI.)
22. I am not the world's best gift-giver. I think it's the pressure, really.
23. I often think if I buy a specific item (electronic, accessory, cd) that my life will make more sense. I often wish someone would talk me out of this trait.
24. I hate corndogs, but I like corn bread, and I like hot dogs.
25. I do not like not wearing underwear. (except for showering, a good romp, etc.)


And that's that.